Two Years

So today I have two years clean...it's been a pretty amazing journey. I'm still dealing with issues that existed before and during my active addiction, and lately that has been consuming me. I have an eating disorder, and thought I do not act on it today, that is, I'm not technically anorexic or bulimic anymore, the state of mind comes and goes. I have been doing things lately that are not conducive to recover: searching pro-ana sites, reading books that are only about the disease and not about recovery. I guess there is some part of me that still wants to be in the world of eating disorders, there's a part of me that wants to remain sick.

However, in the last two years I fought a battle against heroin, alcohol, and any other drug you can imagine, and won. I have a steady job, I am a student, and I have real relationships with people who love me, including my family. My life is much better than it was two years ago and it has been an unforgettable journey. I do things for other people, like go the local jail and speak with the women about recovery, I help out newcomers to the 12 step program I belong to, and it all feels really good. I also have a dog with whom I am obsessed and adore with every fiber of my being.

I am not sure why I am blogging about any of this, and I'm pretty sure no one is ever going to read it, but here it is. It's out there for whatever its worth.

I guess I am here to be honest.

First Blog Ever

I'm not sure why I decided to start blogging. I'm not sure what to blog about, if and what to divulge about myself. I'm not even sure how people find blogs to read, so I'm not sure who if anyone will decide to read this one.

I am a recovering addict and I will have two years clean tomorrow. I haven't put a drug of any kind, including alcohol, in my body for two years.

So for two years I have built a new person. Maybe that is what this blog is about. Life as this new, unfamiliar person.

Cheers.